I always wanted to know what it was like for my former partners all men to exist within their bodies. They stood up so tall, carried themselves with such ease. They could emerge naked from the shower and stand in front of the mirror with no self-consciousness. In bed, they threw themselves into every position, seemingly without worry about how their stomachs would look from that angle, or if their asses were jiggling too much. My every move — even when fully dressed — is always being scrutinized by my relentless inner critic. I think most little girls grow up comfortable in the wildness of their bodies. The whole neighborhood can see your panties! And then, god help us, puberty hits. I was only 10 when this process started. I went from being a long, lean, athletic child to a chubby, awkward, tender-kneed tween.
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MANY years before I got together with my boyfriend, I had a sex thing with this guy that I thought was relationship-material. He not only had an amazing body but a great personality as well. I was honest when I met him that I was looking for something more than just sex, and he led me to believe that was what he wanted, too. Between having mind-blowing sex, we ordered home delivery, played video games, and watched movies - couple-y type things but without the label. But when I tried to get him to go to a show or out to dinner with me, he refused. My frustration grew as the months went on, and one day I confronted him. We might run into one of my buddies," he said moving his body further away from me. The underlining meaning was clear - he couldn't take the chance that someone he knew would see him with me.
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